i dun know why...

i dun know why i was/am so sad but its just so many emotions are coming out of me and extremely innapropriate time and im telling them to the wrong people and i just cant hol d crap in i have to much shit inside my brain to keep fuckin secrets and then im just crying for no reason today and w/e .i hopefully u can understand im sorry if ur upset i dont know why im writing this as a letter but its jsut easier. fuckin crap so unnesecary i hope i didnt fuck anything up. god damn it i started the day all awesome.

im such a duma...

im such a dumass. i dont even know why i do thigns sumtimes. im sorry to all those people who have to deal with my retarded/erratic personality i know i can be confuising. i just make my slef angry with all the stupid shit i do.

i say im mor...

i say im more frustrated than mad

god damn fu...

god damn fuckin shit ass bitch cocksuckin mokey poo vaginaim mad

sat mornin

well today was fairly eventful. i woke up ass early and dragged myself over to nd for detention. it wasnt like the breakfast club though we jsut sat there and listened to jazz, and stared at chalk for 4 hrs. But, we did get a 15 min break in which me and my friend joe hopped in his car and went to burger king and back. it was crazy we barely got back in time. also, sum kid came there and he was high and he was talkin about sumones shoes or sumthin and the dean threw him out cus he was fucked up. it was pretty funny.then since we got elt out early i watched the soph baseball game until my mom and my sis picked me up and we bought a new comp chair which im sittin in right now. oo so comfy.i cant wait for tonight so i can solve the crossword w/ tim, brandon,and devin. then do really bad at bowling booyah.

soo much funo

i jsut got home and i had to sneek and be all silent and stuff cus i was liek 40 min late but my mom was sleepin so i got in safe. yahoo. so devin picked me up to go to guerin and there was a bee on his dashboard it was jsut like walking around and stuff, and it stayed there all the way to guerin which was like 20 min. of course it then became our pet so we named it luanne. it was crawlin aroun and usin its back legs to scratch its butt it was super funny. then we shouyld denise and she sprayed it with her man juice ( febreeze). then i got these super cool present thanx lauren kt cindi and elisebetta. O then i was helpin mackie with the lights and she was liek pat u should audition for the allstae this cus im directin then i was liek holy shit yea. But she also felt really bad about me having like 5 hrs of detention cus o her but w/e i dun mind tha much. O yes and everyone in the show rocked it went totally awesome, and dominics family fuckin rox. But, durin the wild goose chase i was tryin to get into character by makin this weird face and my voice came out all retarded like, it was fun. After the show i saw all these cool peoples and lauren had the most flowers ever they mighta weighed like as much as her. then sum guys came up to me and was like ur my fav goose and that made my night the 3rd time the first time was when me dev tim and brandon solved the crossword puzzle it was bad ass , the second time was the show and the third was dinos and laurens kissed me on the cheek . i dunt think ill ever wash it. i will but the mark will stay there in spirit. thats pretty much it though ima go to sleep and go to detention yeay. im so happy. i only say that cus if i make myself believe it wont be bad it wont be as bad . does that work? i really hope so.

why wo...

why wont my mom let me stay out a lil alter tonight shes bein mean to me i think it might be becus i been gettin in trouble lately? meh i dunno

h...

hmm well today blew cus i got a saturday detention. I hope its like the breakfast club cus that was acool movie. But nayways i took a half day today so everyones still in haha. I took the bus home and sum weird polish guy was readin my book and stuff, and it was kinda weird but then kinda fun. Im excited now rosana. my mommy and grammers are gonna be at the show and thats awesome.o yea i was on announcements today to talk about honk! to all teh school. i wanted dutton to be on but he didnt get his but up thur.Hes the lead. But hey my teacher wouldnt even let me c my video thing on the announcements for the outsiders but ms. harts a fat bitch. Grr nopw im mad abouts the saturday cus ima miss my piven theater thing. this is soo much fun, me and my mom eatin pizza, workin, and writing live journals i should take halfs more often. well i will c all u beautiful people later.peace